thoughts

I am laying here trying to go to sleep but I can't manage to turn my brain off! I can't stop thinking about things. I keep applying for jobs with the city and keep getting my "looser" letters. I wonder when things are ever going to go my way. I want to make more money, get out of debt, and buy a house. None of those things seem realistic for me right now and it is getting so frustrating! Life just needs to cooperate!

Mommy's angel....

One of the best things in my life is my little girl. I am just sitting here watching her play with her toys and listening to her "talk". She spent the night last night with her Gaga and Papa. When I picked her up today she got all excited to see me and oh my god is that the best feeling in the world to have your child so excited to see you. I never could have imagined how wonderful it is to be a mommy. I know I don't want her to grow up that fast but I can't wait until she can call me Mommy!

last week...

So last week was an exciting, exhausting and bummer week all in on. The exciting things were that my daughter has learned that she would rather feed herself than have me feed her. She has attempted to try to stand on her own and she has even tried to take few steps! Too much for a 7 month old to do! She would rather stand then sit so I am constantly running up behind her to make sure that she doesn't hurt herself. I also got to work from home one day! That was awesome! I got to see my daughter clap for the first time. The little things that you never thought you would enjoy seeing or be upset missing. I am hoping that I will be able to work from home when my work moves to oregon so that way I'm not jobless! The bummer news was that I didn't get the job that I had applied for. Oh well everything happens for a reason I believe. Well I better go my daughter is trying to crawl on the coffee table.